YouCantUnderstand

my heart feels like a circus;

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There Will Be by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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There Will Be

Three months later Can't you let it go Won't you let me live I'm finally free from you All you ever did to me was lie Consume me with pain I never imagined Delude me into believing I'd die without you And trick me into loving you I'd like to say I'm sorry That it's over now But the pain is gone and I hope you hurt now more than ever You're the one who can't stop Chasing me around every corner Trying to haunt my memories Begging with me with the what-ifs I can't stand you any more Those chains were long broken They're lying there on the floor Along with the diseased love you gave me Infecting my heart and taking all my ener

Communication Error by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Communication Error

There are these words on my lips Thoughts in my mind I can't express them since they're Locked deeply inside of me I can search for a thousand years Just to find the key to let them out But by then it'll be too late And you'll be long gone again For the time being I think That I can improvise to let you know The communication errors I'm having Hoping that you'll understand Days turn into months which transform Into the longest of years And coldest of winters where you don't Remember anything that happened Do you still listen to 'our song' The one that I handwrote to you Set in pen, the words permanent as ever Letting you kn

On the Edge by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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On the Edge

Twist my words and pull me Back into your warped world Lies weaving webs around my mind Captivating me where I stand It's not your fault I can't Seem to pull away from you The tangled mess you've made Of both my heart and my mind Trying to find some sense of truth Beneath all the lies you've force-fed me Every time I refused to believe you And the tales you told when you came home The door is just down the hall I can see it in mind's eye I'm walking towards it and leaving Never looking back to what could have been You've kept me in this forsaken house Trapped between walls of your deceit Doors and windows nailed shut with B

Anybody's Heart by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Anybody's Heart

It meant nothing to the one Who came before you Tossing words around so freely As if they could always be taken back Nothing felt the same after they Left my heart in pieces on the floor For me to mend and detox from the Poison you spread through me every day Unknowingly binding me to a world Where the sun never rose and Love was nothing but cruelty Allowing me to suffer without death You didn't realize the heart you left Wasn't just anybody's heart It was the one that winded itself securely With pure tendrils of love around yours The cords that you severed the day you Left me broken and bleeding on the floor Tossed away lik

In the Middle by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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In the Middle

Stop so the world can see Everything's quiet but your eyes Speak volumes so loud I'm almost Deaf with the truth you know I can't say anything to make this stop The world won't allow me to press 'pause' Close my eyes and fly away To a higher place where this isn't happening How could this happen to me, to us You swear you want this more than Anything we've both ever wanted That you want me more than anything But it's just too late now that Words are falling like rain All around us and chilling us to the bone Making it impossible to turn and run There's just too much I can't say Will you regret this later I'm not all too sure

Stuck in the Moment by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Stuck in the Moment

The air is too heavy Lights are too bright You're standing there in front of me But your words fail to communicate It's this dream, this beautiful nightmare That keeps me awake at night The way it felt to be stuck in the moment When you tore my heart out Nothing can fill the gaping hole you left Leaving me for dead with tears burning At the backs of my eyes unable to say Anything I wish I had now It's this moment that repeats How your voice sounded with your Words like knives cutting me apart Slowly but surely until nothing was left You swear you didn't want it to feel Any bit relevant to how it does now But you're not the o

Pins and Needles by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Pins and Needles

Rain sliding down the window pane Eyes transfixed on the horizon Searching for something out there To reassure her there will be a dawn A soft tap at the window calls her But she ignores it in favor of the way It feels to have her heart breaking Clean down the temporary seams Pain rips at her with it's claws Tearing her apart inside unknowingly Doubling the pain she already feels Inside her broken and ruptured heart Her mind refuses to accept the way Your voice sounded so perfectly smooth When you said we were through And the click of the receiver so simple and clear You swore you loved her While the nights get longer she sta

Starlit Eyes by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Starlit Eyes

A smile that can light up The whole room in an instant Leaving no spaces for darkness To breed it's evil creatures In hours of despair I only Have to look up into deep eyes That shine with hope to Pull me through the painful nights Is there a better remedy For a heart once broken timelessly Than love so pure and gentle It melds the broken pieces together Starlit eyes with all the stars From the brightest night sky Filling them with warmth enough To melt icy walls around my heart Some things we'll never understand Words we'll never get to hear on Fragile lips left shaking in fear Unable to express what they feel Spaces left

Hate that I Love You by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Hate that I Love You

Every word you say I believe Simply because I have faith in The fact you would never lie No matter how much the truth hurts I hate how I always seem to Run right back to you when Everything starts going wrong Instead of turning it inside of me I didn't want to fall in love So why'd I have to stumble Why did you have to catch me And never let me go It sucks how I miss you because Pain like this makes me feel too Vulnerable for words to express Stripped of my well-worn mask If I look away from you it's to hide The fact that my eyes are starting To shine with affection I can't put Into coherent words to explain it How did thi

The Poison by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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There Will Be by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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There Will Be

Starlit Eyes by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Starlit Eyes

Circus by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Circus

Tonight my heart feels like There's too much to take in All these feelings running Chasing each other in circles Confusing myself to what I Should and should not feel On this very lonely evening Watching the lights go out One by one they disappear Leaving me in total darkness Wondering about what could be And what might be in the morning Am I supposed to know What tomorrow brings When I don't even know How I feel inside at all It's too much to take in Like I'm trying to hold onto the world When my hands are shaking so I can't even hold onto myself Falling to pieces bit by bit Keeping a smile on my face They'll ask questi

Fly Away by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Fly Away

Chains that held me down so long Tied down by society's judgment Always under scrutinizing eyes Told how to act and what to say They don't know how I feel inside To be told I cannot be myself And that it's a sin against humanity If I ever try to be myself Do you see the depths of these scars The ones your words left on me Trying to make me see that I can't be anyone but who you want One of these days your chains won't Restrain me any longer after being Rusted from all the tears I've cried And all the blood I spilled Trying to make it clearer to myself That I am better than any of your words Pouring out my heart and soul Jus

Addiction by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Addiction

The voices in my head Screaming so loud I can't hear Logic has long since fled This chaos inside of me It's like a drug I need Coursing through my veins Keeping me on high alert Numbing me from anything else The pain from your words stings But at the same time I need it Just to be able to understand That I mean anything to you It's like an addiction I can't break I just keep coming back for more Letting my heart suffer time and time again The consequences evaporating You tell me I'm worthless and I believe you because I need to In order to understand the fact I'm just a human being Imperfections make me beautiful Or so I'

Abused by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Abused

Screams ringing in my ears Wounds on my heart still fresh Bleeding with every second Never healing over once Ugly scars cover my body Though nobody can see them I feel so abused in the silence Trying to make myself heard I don't want to be this girl The one who everyone pities Looks down upon and says I'm so sorry, sweetie You don't know how I feel So don't give me your phony Words that should comfort me Had they ever been true Too many times before I've been Beaten down to the ground Kicked while I'm down and Left for dead in the middle of nowhere I have no place to call home any more This slowly mending heart is the onl

Never Easier by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Never Easier

Scars from before are mending As every moment I spend Looking into your perfect eyes Another wound disappears Trying to heal years of scars Takes more time than I think We'll ever have to share together But if we try, maybe we'll know What it takes to help Revive human wreckage like me Somebody whose always known Nothing but loneliness and pain Every night it's never easier To express my love for you It's so difficult for me to express Feelings I don't even understand Blame it all on those before you The ones that left these marks People who made the nights longer Because everything was so wrong In this twisted reality I w

Hate You, Miss You by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Hate You, Miss You

A heart appears in the window So clear against the rain Sliding down the dirty pane Drawn long ago but clear now Initials appear as my breath Frosts the glass slowly And I see the letters I've tried To erase time and time before Words I wrote before mean Nothing to me now that I know Just what you're capable of and All the love you've used You told me you loved me Then why'd you have to go Leaving me standing in the rain Tears sliding down my face Like the raindrops I watch A clean wipe to the slate Just to keep moving on From times that were so good Time and time again I've written I hate you and I don't care any more B

Color Me Blue by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Color Me Blue

Give me one more chance To right this wrong and Erase the stains on this page Don't turn your eyes away I hear you say those words But my body feels too numb There's a fog inside my mind I just can't seem to break You love me, or so you say Never meaning to hurt me Keep your eyes right here Focused on me forever I'm so afraid if I look I'll never be able to remember Why I ever became so Broken up inside in the first place But your voice so sweet Attracts me like a moth to a flame I look you in the eyes and Everything around me falls to pieces Color me blue since I can't Seem to let go of you Eyes shining so brightly Eag

Sweetest Downfall by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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Sweetest Downfall

Those memories are sweet Still bringing some tears Into these eyes staring Straight ahead to the future What happened before I cannot change at all Though the days have Long since passed me by When we first met you Looked into my eyes and I think we both knew it then We'd fall deeply in love Time moved quickly And through long nights Contemplation and heartache Somehow I told you 'yes' So began a new chapter Of my life to be written and Ended with a firm period A large stain of red ink I write this story in blood From all the wounds inflicted Feeling bitter and resentful Doesn't help me in any way I loved you from the

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-- Sightless -- by YouCantUnderstand, literature

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-- Sightless --

It's a warm August day and she sits in her room, legs crossed and elbows on the windowsill with her chin in her hands. Dark hazel irises stare out with child-like wonder at the cars speeding past her house. They're all going somewhere with happy families or parents going out for the night. Their lives are all in motion and they can always sleep easy. Or is that really the truth? Deep inside this girl wonders if maybe, just maybe, the people passing by are just like her; lonely and unable to sleep at night due to regret. They look so happy. There's always a reason why people look as happy as they do. Everyone has had their fair share of pain a

-- Sightless --

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June 27
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Deviant for 17 years
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_{I'm a dreamer, what more can I say? Born June 27th and still here to this day no matter how much I've wanted to let go. I've found hope and a reason to go on. I absolutely adore my friends and cherish them because they make every single day worth it. I am in love with somebody who cherishes me for who I am and not the facades I've put up these past few years. For once in my life I've finally found peace and happiness. Music is my life, art is my soul, and I bleed the words that I write. I happen to truly believe life is beautiful and there is more out there you've just never got to stop searching.}

Current Residence: Somewhere Over the Rainbow~
Favourite genre of music: Alternative
Favourite photographer: N/A
Favourite style of art: Expressionism
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: iPod Nano
Favourite cartoon character: Winnie the Pooh (it counts, dumbasses)
Personal Quote: These scars run deep, and they will consume me if I do not find a purpose for this pain.

Favourite Visual Artist

Monet

Favourite Movies

The Illusionist, The Princess Bride, and 10 Things I Hate About You

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Coldplay, Imogen Heap, The Veronicas, MCR, FOB, Daughtry, The Used, t.A.T.u, and more...

Favourite Writers

Shakespeare, Gail Giles, David Levithan, Alex Sanchez, and J.K. Rowling

Favourite Games

N/A

Favourite Gaming Platform

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Tools of the Trade

Prisma colored pencils, number two pencils, pens, sketchooks, and notebooks, mostly...

Other Interests

Art is my life and music is the blood in my veins.

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YouCantUnderstand

Jun 27, 2012

18.

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Doesn't really feel any different, hm. I'm getting a tattoo on Friday to summarize my journey these past five or six years, I'll post pictures.

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YouCantUnderstand

Jun 26, 2012

Almost 18.

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I'll be an adult soon, yay? On another note, I deleted I think 400 of my submissions if not more from 2007-2012 (five years). No real pattern for what I did, guess I kept some of my more popular works, I guess. No guarantee on more to come. EDIT: I felt like I should say that no, I do not have any of those 400 saved, so gone is gone... Talk more soon, stay strong. Lots of Love, Kimberly

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YouCantUnderstand

May 20, 2012

Ho, hum. It's been a long, long time ,)

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Well, well, well... Thank you, first off to everyone to who has still supported me and my work while I've been away. The amount of messages I receive is astonishing and has completely floored me. I thank you all from the depths of my heart. Never could I have imagined these little pieces of my mind could attract so much attention. I am honestly not sure if/when I will begin writing again. I think you should all know that right off the bat. It's been a long flux between feeling good and feeling down, but right now I'm at a good place in life where I feel honestly content. Currently, I'm trying to make amends for things that've happened late

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birthdays

Jun 28, 2014

!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

It's June 27^th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year! Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team

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Jasperinity

Jun 25, 2014

I'm a few days early, but I hope you have a happy birthday!

ice-or-fire

Jun 26, 2013

Hello!

_{Happy [early] birthday!}
^{Wishing you many more candles to come and a bigger cake to fit them all!}

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Jul 1, 2012

!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

On behalf of the *birthdays team, I sincerely apologise that your greeting has arrived late this year.

We hope you had an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team

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ice-or-fire

Jun 26, 2012

_{Hello!
Happy [early] birthday!
It only comes one day a year so do something to make it memorable!}

YouCantUnderstand

Jun 27, 2012

Thank you very much! <3 hopefully I will, haha.

ice-or-fire

Jun 27, 2012

_{You're welcome!}