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YouCantUnderstand

Published: Jun 27, 2009

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Morning breaks over the hills
Pouring warm rays into my room
Burning away the darkness
As I welcome another day

So this is what it feels like
To know you've survived
A storm that almost took you
Far away into complete silence

The days were slow
While some never really ended
Leaving dreams empty
And thoughts scattered

Just trying to get by
Hoping that tomorrow would be
Something better than before
To give another reason to live

Somewhere in my heart I believe
There's a purpose for all the pain
A reason to keep on fighting
While the darkness creeps around me

One day I'll wake up from this
Messed up dream and I'll find
That all along the reason I looked for
Was standing right there by my side

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